Well this week was a long one. The heat was hard to deal with, and as a result, I didn’t meet any of my small victory goals that I set myself last week.
I didn’t make it to the gym, or for a swim. I couldn’t bring myself to cook something from scratch in my boiling hot kitchen, and there was no listening to guided meditations before bed.
It’s cooled down massively now thank goodness. I’m not upset with myself for not reaching my small victory goals this week, and I’m surprised how easy it is to not feel bad about it. I feel like I’m on the up and am thinking more reasonably, I’m being kind to myself and not putting any excessive pressure on myself. I’m a little nervous about my doctors appointment next Friday, but I’m trying to remind myself that worrying isn’t going to make it any easier to deal with on the day, so just try and enjoy the moment. Like right now, I’m on the train to Peterborough to see my best friend for some lunch. The vast expanse of green as I look out of the train windows is so beautiful, and it really reminds me how picturesque the UK can be outside of the cities and towns. Don’t get me wrong, we have some gorgeous cities and towns too, but there’s nothing better that a beautiful countryside landscape.
I’ve been really trying to look for positives and beauty when my anxiety kicks in, and am doing my best to practice mindfulness. I do find it very hard because my brain is so used to scattering off in a thousand directions, but I guess I just need to stick with it and really try to practice daily.
So for the next week I’m going to set myself one small victory goal. To go through the week being as mindful as I can. No pressure to be perfect at it, but just to try. The main reason I’m not setting myself 3 goals again is because I know that if for some reason I don’t meet the goals again, I might feel a little upset for doing it 2 weeks in a row. So one goal it is, and then I can revisit this next week.
Have a good week everybody x
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