So this morning I’m feeling a bit strange. I’ve made it to work but I don’t start for another 30 minutes. As soon as I woke up I was hit with those feelings of not wanting to go to work. I’m pleased that I pushed through them to get here, but something still feels really off.
So I’m going to just start rambling about all the things I could possibly be worried about today to see if I can figure this out and challenge this feeling:
- Mondays are always a little tough, and I’m worried about my ability to cope with my responsibilities today.
- I’m worried about how much interaction with my colleagues might needed first thing in the morning.
- I’m worried about my time management today because I know I am case owning an urgent piece of work, but I know that one of the managers is also adding other work to my queue that only I can do, and I feel like it’s unreasonable to keep avoiding training in these areas for other members of the team.
Okay, so there’s a few things. Let’s challenge them.
- My manager knows that I’m not at my best right now. If I am struggling to cope with my responsibilities I need to tell my manager this, and ask for support. This does not make me a failure! I am entitled to support the same way anyone else would be.
- Unfortunately I can’t avoid interaction. I will be polite and supportive, but if I start to feel overwhelmed I can direct my colleagues to another member of the team that can support them. It does not fall all on to me, and there are others in the team capable of supporting.
- I need to be honest in this area. The pressure of having work only i can do and having to case own a high profile case (which will require consistent work throughout my day) isn’t fair to me. They need to take my concerns regarding training in this area more seriously because the team is not equipped to handle these tasks without me.
Right, I won’t lie and say I feel tip top now, but I am thinking more clearly about how to deal with my worries. The theme of honesty is present throughout, so today I need to be honest and professional if I feel less capable than usual. This does not make me a failure.
Have a good day everyone x
On My Mind 